她写的：“想要的太多最后却得到的很少 想做好的很多最后却什么都没做好 想给你更多的幸福却又无能为力 想好好的过却又愈加伤感 当你觉得心有余而力不足的时候那是最痛苦的所以我不会再奢求太多了因为我真的回报不起。”

this goes out to someone that was

once the most important person in my life

i didn't realize it at the time

i can't forgive myself for the way i treated you so

i don't really expect you to either

it's just... i don't even know

just listen...

 

you're the one that i want, the one that i need

the one that i gotta have just to succeed

when i first saw you, i knew it was real

i'm sorry about the pain i made you feel

that wasn't me; let me show you the way

i looked for the sun, but it's raining todayi remember when i first looked into your eyes

it was like god was there, heaven in the skies

i wore a disguise 'cause i didn't want to get hurt

but i didn't know i made everything worse

you told me we were crazy in love

but you didn't care when push came to shove

if you loved me as much as you said you did

then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't shit

now you pushed me away like you never even knew me

i loved you with my heart, really and truly

i guess you forgot about the times that we shared

when i would run my fingers through your hair

late nights, just holding you in my arms

i don't know how i could do you so wrong

i really wanna show you i really need to hold you

i really wanna know you like no one could else know you

you're number one, always in my heart

and now i can't believe that our love is torn apart

i need you and

i miss you and

i want you and

i love you 'cause

i wanna hold you,

i wanna kiss you

you were my everything

and i really miss you

i need you and

i miss you and

i want you and

i love you 'cause

i wanna hold you,

i wanna kiss you

you were my everything

and i really miss you

i knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man

and then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand

the thought of that just shatters my heart

it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

at times we was off i was scared to show you

now i wanna hold you until i can't hold you

without you, everything seems strange

your name is forever planted in my brain

damn it, i'm insane,

take away the pain

take away the hurt

baby, we can make it work

what about when you

looked into my eyes

told me you loved me

as you would hugged me

i guess everything you said was a lie

i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes

now i'm not even a thought in your mind

i can see clearly, my love is not blind

i need you and

i miss you and

i want you and

i love you 'cause

i wanna hold you,

i wanna kiss you

you were my everything

and i really miss you

i need you and

i miss you and

i want you and

i love you 'cause

i wanna hold you,

i wanna kiss you

you were my everything

and i really miss you

i just wish everything could have turned out differently

i had a special feeling about you

i thought maybe you did too

you would understand, but...

no matter what, you'll always be in my heart

you'll always be my baby

 

our first day, it seemed so magical

i remember all the time that i had with you

remember when you first came to my house?

you looked like an angel wearing that blouse

we hit it off, i knew it was real

but now i can't take all the pain that i feel

reach in your heart, i know i'm still there

i don't wanna hear that you no longer care

remember the times? remember when we kissed?

i didn't think you would ever do me like this

i didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed

i thought you'd be there for me, this i confess

you said you were my best friend, was that a lie?

now i'm nothing to you, you're with another guy

i tried, i tried, i tried, and i'm trying

now on the inside it feels like i'm dying

i need you and

i miss you and

i want you and

i love you 'cause

i wanna hold you,

i wanna kiss you

you were my everything

and i really miss you

i need you and

i miss you and

i want you and

i love you 'cause

i wanna hold you,

i wanna kiss you

you were my everything

and i really miss you

and i do miss you

i just thought we were meant to be

i guess now, we'll never know

the only thing i want is for you to be happy

whether it be with me, or without mei

just want you to be happy

真他妈的无聊，我的心啊就跟这天似的，哇凉哇凉的~！！！~！！！~！！！

从中午就给姑娘打电话，就是没有人接，一遍一遍的打，真他妈的让我郁闷！！！！！

我这是怎么了，为什么总是希望接到她的信息或是电话，她的一句话就能让能让我高兴一天。上个礼拜五记得那是《达芬奇密码》首映式，我们俩去看的，那天看完之后又在汤姆熊打了好长时间的‘币子’，吃饭的时候我俩聊了很多，从以前到现在，感觉时间过得真得是很快！！！！！

今天我很想看到她，还有一个原因的，那就是在去年这个时候（２００５年５月２７日），俺们这个

“破”学校开运动会，我应该感谢运动会使我认识了她～～～～～～！！！！！！！

本想今天和她出去玩，怎么地也应该纪念一下相识已一周年，操，电话都打不通，自己出去吃好东西去，烤肉，火锅，海鲜…………

 

这个老逼天，阴吧呼呼的，雷阵雨转多云，回头我在找上帝算账！！！！！！！

没意思，睡觉～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

  今天外面的天氣很好，而我自己在寢室裏傻呆這。獨自等待姑娘回復的信息，不知道最後的結果是什麽，我還是很惦記她的！！！！！！！